Really didn't wanted to bring it up, but i need to get this off from my mind.

When i look at "Hostile Of Tomorrow" and "Break Of Dawn", there is always one question in my mind - "Did i reached my Magnum Opus? Do i able to make the songs like there again and better?" I just don't understand. Or don't even want to understand, i don't know.

Both of them, including "Risen" and "Starless Night" - the only tracks of the different genres i've ever tried besides hardstyle. I've always asked myself and even asking now - "Do i really need to continue making the tracks like these four?" Making these kinds of tracks was always an different experiment and the moment, when i felt like i'm not where i should go. Alongside, there's a new questions - "Can i do better? Do i able to continue *experimenting*?"... Am i on the right track, for god's sake? During the process i really felt like i am not who i need to be.

I don't know. I can't answer these questions by myself. Do i still want to experiment? Or just stick with hardstyle, as usual? I don't know.

I guess this is my main downfall of my whole life - i can't be sure what i want, can't be sure doing right or wrong. I can't even understand... did i really reached my magnum opus? Then what is my best work i've ever done and i mostly proud? Can't answer this one either. Because... i just don't know and i'm not sure anymore.

Making music was my very first and most favourite hobby, i've wrote music for 5 years because i liked it, and i don't want to leave it behind. But if i cant answer these questions... Do i'll be able to continue doing what i like?

Do i?